been chewing on longans alot.

cos ive been buying them

to cook the aloe vera thing.



chewin on longans reminds me

of all the stupid things ive done,

and al the sweet things too.



::just the mildest of e sweet things::

1. woke up n made a lil card for kav

while that pig was still in bed

2. watched the sunrise at changi

3. patted kav to sleep

4. took care of sven thru the night

5. botherin to dress up. think 2001



so many that i cant put down.

anyhow that was just the prelude to this:



::the treatment i get::

1. someone cheated on me

2. someone was confused over the ex

3. all took me for granted

4. i got spread lousy rumours

5. i got nothing.



so much more.

i think i'm just disillusioned.

for a few seconds.

i dun trust that i'll really have

a prince charming for me out there.

but im still lookin fwd, anywhow.



eu said

that her mum said

that this book said

"if u dun get something,

it's cos u dun want it bad enough."