Saturday, December 30, 2006

ughhhhhhh. yawn.

no more 1.40am movies for me if im working the next day.

and wad's with all this upgrading your blog by combining with google thing? just like flickr n yahoo. the font looks weird. oh wait. does it mean i can change my font?

let's try.
oh yes it works. =) comfort.

oh no it doesnt. i think the style sheet overwrites it. damn.

Friday, December 1, 2006

read!

after a blood test today, i declare that im fit for blood donation - there's no pain involved and hey. blood comes out! ive always feared oil'll flow out. well of cos the nurse has to poke the needle into the vein and not just below my skin.

i thot this alphabet thing is fun - gives u a topic and yet the freedom to go ahead.. and crap. here goes. Ten things i love beginning with the letter 'n'. wow. sounds like the pyramid game. half of me feels like describing what i like that starts with 'n' and let u guess. but i think noone will. so. rah.

one
NANA. i love you! the balance between me n yz, the giver who doesnt mind my taking (or at least has the decency to keep it to herself), the gof who let me squat for a sem, the listener to all my jokes which turn out unfunny.

two
need. it's always the ends of the spectrum when it comes to need and me. it's always either someone needs me so much i can't take it or i need someone so much it hurts. and now i need a balance.

three
nothing. i believe in nothing. that nothing's real, that nothing's forever, that nothing is important. that nothing's deliberate. that nothing's subconscious. and nothing's the truth. i'm scared of nothing. that nothing's gonna be the outcome of my whole life. and yet i believe in it.

four
new. just like the vague positioning of the new mall, i'm lover of all things new. venturing into new things (and most of the time not completing them) is my biggest love.

five
never never land. i love peter pan. i love wendy. and most of all i love never never land. not just as a fairytale or bedtime story but it sets me thinking. go dwell.

six
nonsense. i think thats what im made of. and i love myself. =)

seven
nemories. does this work? okay i wont take the shortcut.
new media. i think this counts. i love how society reflects and influences. and theres nothing else that does this more than new media.

eight
i give up. next time.

nine
ten

you tell me how true this is.

You have exaggerated demands on life but you are cautious enough to try to hide these beliefs from the outside world. You are covert enough to try to impress other people around you with your achievements and at the same time able to put on an act of pretending to be 'humble' - being the same as everyone else. It would appear, however, that whatever you are doing seems to be working out O.K.

You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.

You are fed up with other people trying to influence you and you also feel that it is necessary to protect yourself from the threat that your independence and freedom may be restricted. You would just like to be left alone.