aunty jordy.

aunty jordy.

"this one offer til when ah?"
"ok gimme one packet."
"this liang teh can boil how many litres ah?"
"ok gimme one packet."
"huh? oh rock sugar. yea no more already. i go get one packet."

she looked left and right,
straightened her back,
held her head high,
and walked out the door
trying her best to look like a taitai.

up the escalators to the fourth floor.
"mee hoon kuey one packet."
"thank you har."
"chicken wings how much?"
"aiyo so expensive. ok lah gimme two."

with the many plastic bags in her hand,
she decided to do away with glamour.
it was just another few hundred metres to home,
how many cute pple can she spot?

"oh hi!"
hurriedly pushing the fallen locks of hair back into place,
she mustered the most normal voice she could,
"i was just about to tell u i might be boiling some tea later. tell me when u reach home ah."

"YOU VERY AUNTIE LEH"
reilly gasped as he saw the plastic bags in her hand.
"Aunty Jordy."

ok fine.
that's me.
got caught during the last lap home.

got this off nineam's livejournal.
something abt me!

1. Do u think u will ever settle down with a 9-5 job?
i might..depends on the nature of the job. i dun mind regular timings as long as the job isn't too bad itself.

2. Why do u prefer cats to dogs?
i prefer babies actually. dogs make me feel loved, babies make me smile n wanna love. ok lola makes me wanna love her too. but babies are just irresistable. ok lola too. i'm just confused.

3. If u were to pick up a new sport, what would it be and why?
new ah. hmmm. tai ji quan i think.

4. Tell me about your best memory in secondary school.
being ostracised in sec 1 and marked for every single thing i do. haha too long a memory to relate over an answer.

5. Recommend me a book to read and tell me why I should read it.
book ah. how about just a play? i'm sure u have no time. try Wills and Successions by eleanor wong. made some frens n i tear. and touched quite a few others too.

sports day

sports day!

sports day used to be a big thing..
and i think it still is for st nicks.
lemme see,
how many of u still don't know i'm from st nicks?
anyway, was bored at home,
and called kris.
the conversation went something like that:

me : hallo?
her : hey!
me : how come u're at home!
her : im going out soon..u free ah?!
me : yea..bored man.
her : den why u never go sports day with me!!
me : (suddenly recalled having said i'd be busy studying, embarrassed) oh.
her : come out lah!
me : huh really meh? i'm supposed to be studying leh.
her : the most we go back earlier?
me : hmm. u really wan me to go?
her : yea!
me : ok..gimme some time ah.
her : we'll meet at three!

something like that.
then i bathed ah,
picked clothes ah,
oh she asked me to wear red for red house.
(i actually still have my red house tshirt btw)
den anyway i had to cover all the blemishes on my face
before i could go out to the congregation of crk beauties.
so i dilly dallied,
wore some red top,
walked to the bus stop,
went back home to change cos i thot i was overdressed.
den went off again.
reached abt 415pm ba,
of cos i told her i'd be late lah!
saw beloved ivy the pigumao
and of cos krissy.
the weather was a killer.
quite relaxing having little chats
and catchin up on one another's lives.

guess who i saw back at st nicks?
ana! u know..the arts ana.
and the girl who was always with diana,
and both holding two shoe bags each last time.
then...GRACE!
hahaha. wad a shock.
i mercilessly slammed her with my handbag.
yes the mphosis one. =]
so it didnt hurt lah.
felt so good i was not the oldest there..
and that eliza just had to remind me
that she's one whole generation after me.
this is roughly wad she said:

eliza : eh i grey badge leh.
me : (stares n tries to look indignant)
carol/dan : eh i sec 1 that time u sec 4.
me : (holds head higher n pretends it didnt hurt)
eliza : but i grey badge! u also. means u sec 1 that time, i primary 1.
me : (mouth drops open unglamourously n closes it back before anyone realised) omg. i remember. i'm old.

shared cab home with carol n ivy girl.
the girl who's always 14 in mine eyes.
den stoning now.
why m i so stoned?
jiu ming ah.

fir n trey pics

pics of the trip to holland v nydc
after acting paper for fir n trey's bday lunch
up under fir n trey 2005

feel like the exam's over!

feel like the exam's over!

went drinking with ayda, angela, firs n trey yest
after the selt paper.
and one of them added that
"the ambience was not bad".
the drinks were ok i guess.
after all i only tried that one.

after that was ktv with firs trey n valane
my gawd.
it was like an all-night thing lah
but i love listening to the three singers.
my gawd.
everything from blues to rock.
noone sang my techno lor.
but anws.
techno's for me on my headphones.
not many pple nowadays appreciate it huh.
come back, leona!

munchied again today with two of my wacky babes,
ck of course.
the rest practically disappeared lor!
*angry*
oh and my lovely husband as well,
for whom i no longer take off his shoes.
n never ever peeled his prawns too,
despite the horrible hint.
the cake got smaller,
and the chocolate ice cream too.
but it felt good..
like the exam's over.
but i know better.
at least lit's enjoyable.
oh the taxi ride was the horrible part.
the 'ever loving lulu of all times'.
i almost threw up when i alighted.
the motion sickness thing is going too far.

i feel like cancelling tuition,
but urgh.
i'm broke lah.
like super uber.
i'm setting up the jo computer fund.
please contact me if u're interested to contribute!
*smiles my sweetest smile*

quote of the day
"you're the drama magnet"

well i guess i should be,
lookin back on my life,
and lookin at my current situation.
and dumberly said this,
"you sound like you're reading a script."

i believe in karma!

i believe in karma.

the day you let go of my hand

the day you let go of my hand.

the day you let go of my hand,
i was still smiling away,
waiting patiently for the next.

the day you let go of my hand,
we loved each other like noone else will,
and i thought we would forever.

the day you let go of my hand,
i thought i was the most fortunate on earth,
knowing i love you, and you love me too.

the day you let go of my hand,
i didn't think it would end this way,
hoping we'd love each other til the end.

the day you let go of my hand,
we started to drift apart,
day by day, week by week, year by year.

the day you let go of my hand,
i knew not who you were,
the stranger emerged from you, the one i loved.

the day you let go of my hand,
was the day i believed that there would never be
a day you'd let go of my hand.

the day you let go of my hand,
i'm waiting for you to come back,
shed that stranger body you live in.

come back to hold my hand again.
and this time, promise you'll never let go.

string of tests

this helps when u wanna do anything but study.

(this makes me smile)

Leo - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You're almost always the center of attention - and easy for potential dates to spot Your happiness and optimism is appealing to all... and contagious! You don't hold grudges - getting over little fights is no problem for you Your negative traits: You tend to ignore relationship problems, until they are too big to handle You crave luxury, and you are disappointed with partners who can't provide you with it If someone does you wrong, you'll coldly and cruely break their heart Your ideal partner: Someone high status enough to bring you more attention - but not so great that they upstage you Makes you laugh and brings excitement to everything you do together Is aggressive and confident enough to butt heads with you every so often Your dating style: High expectations. You need to be impressed with an incredible first date for a second one to occur. Your seduction style: You like to make the first move - you're fearless about initiating things Passionate. You really get into any intimate act. Aggressive. Most of the time, you find yourself wanting sex more than your partner. Tips for the future: Try to not need so much attention. You'll feel less ignored, guaranteed. Learn to love your parnter for who they are - not how they help advance your life. Let your partner shine occasionally. You don't always have to be the alpha dog. Best place to meet someone online: Platnium Romance - these flirty singles will make sure that you're the center of attention Best color to attract mate: Gold Best day for a date: Sunday Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You Are 50% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

im the yellow pegasus.

You are Yellow Pegasus, who is charming but short tempered.
You possess charms and a well liked personality.
You tend to be rather too emotional and over reactive, in that you can cry your eyes out on nothing, or be impressed by small things.
From others you look very sociable, and likes being with people.
But inside, you are sensitive and nervous, you are extremely cautious, and are only acting to look sociable.
Nevertheless, you can trust people easily, and tend to be soft hearted.
You should be careful not to be deceived.
You have great talent and intelligence.
You are very active person and are always busy.
Your emotions and actions are combined and you can work on great speed.
You don't let other people come near you, and therefore tend to work on your own.
You are also able to manipulate others to help you do your work.
Someone who can understand your sensitivity and someone who can bring out your talent like a big sister will be a great help for you.
You have too many likes and dislikes.
You are temperamental tom-boy type of woman.
You possess good speculative talent, and may be able to make huge amount of money.
Although you are not a great spender, sometimes you easily spend great amount on impulse.
You will experience grand passion when young.
A lot of this type of people tends to get remarried as well.
Health wise, you should be careful about your stomach and liver.
Having sunshine may do you good.

so true.
got it off jaysher's.

you?

stagnant meh?

stagnant meh?
no flies wad.

im dyinggg.
im losing my m.
my m doesnt wan me!
and im hungry all the time.
think my brain's just irritating me.
doing anything except studying.
jiu ming ahhh.

cant believe i have three papers in two days.
i don't know how im gonna finish studying,
the way i m now.
helppp.
im trying to act intellectual
but it's not helping either.
kill me.

complications

complications

everything is easier said than done.
and i have the ability to advise myself sometimes.
like pretend i'm an outsider n all.
but everything just doesnt help.

no i'm not down,
just upset over some complications
and very torn n confused.
i thot it was gonna get done n over with
but i guess i was wrong.

anyway,
there are complications to the drug im taking,
and i fear a fren of mine is taking the same drug.
and there's just so much supply of it u know.
im drugged.

dating tests

dating tests.
thought it was interesting,
and both my gofs did it haha. =]

first this,

Your dating personality profile: Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.

Your date match profile: Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps her body in top shape. Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Athletic 2. Liberal 3. Big-Hearted 4. Practical 5. Wealthy/Ambitious 6. Adventurous 7. Funny 8. Sensual 9. Outgoing 10. Intellectual

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Athletic 2. Practical 3. Outgoing 4. Big-Hearted 5. Conservative 6. Traditional 7. Intellectual 8. Funny 9. Wealthy/Ambitious 10. Adventurous

Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions

then this,

Your dating personality profile: Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously.

Your date match profile: Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape. Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart. Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Athletic 2. Liberal 3. Funny 4. Adventurous 5. Big-Hearted 6. Wealthy/Ambitious 7. Practical 8. Sensual 9. Religious 10. Intellectual

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Athletic 2. Funny 3. Adventurous 4. Practical 5. Outgoing 6. Religious 7. Wealthy/Ambitious 8. Intellectual 9. Big-Hearted 10. Conservative

Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions

obstacle game

obstacle game

i was playing ps in mummy's room,
that shanghai mahjong obstacle game.
mahjong tiles were stacked on top of one another,
and u had to remove them by pairs.
tiles with two sides untouched were movable,
the rest were not.
and there was a time limit to remove all the tiles.
the first two games i breezed thru.

it was that third game that set me thinking.
some pairs were stacked on top of each other,
so you had to think carefully
before removing the other two tiles of the same pattern
cos otherwise u'll be stuck with the two
and u'll lose the game.
for the third game,
i assumed the "liu tong"s were stacked on top of each other
cos i only saw the pair that was stacked tog.
but i didn't remember having removed the other two.
but i assumed i did,
since i didnt see them around.
so i gave up without trying.
i restarted that same game,
and for two more times
i thot i had removed it again.
i kept restarting before it had a chance to continue.
then the last time,
i continued anyway.
and i realised the other two tiles were so close
to the ones stacked on top of each other
which was why i didn't see them before.
but this time,
i ran out of time.

wad a joke i play on myself eh?

Bias

Bias

it happened in class,
the recalling of an incident that happened in P4.
the teacher so obviously had double standards
and i just felt like stabbing him in the stomach.
why isn't everyone treated the same?
it's not even about deserving the treatment or not.
we haven't even come to that stage.

i showed her the little scar on my left wrist.
so small noone would even notice
unless i point it out.
so small even i would forget
if not for the awful memory.

the flesh refused to open up
despite the many tries.
the foldable metal scissors we used last time.
if anyone wans to try, never use that.
i swear i didn't hold back any force,
as far as i remember.
i was serious about it.
i was too young to care i didn't live for myself,
and i couldn't live for myself.
i mustered all the force i had in me
in that ten-year-old body
to clamp down on that small bit of flesh.
it wouldn't open up.

it was arts class,
and our form teacher told us the day before
to bring our crayons for the coloring.
i knew i wouldnt be able to finish sketching
so i didn't bring it intentionally.
it so happened she decided to check if we brought.
i was explaining it to her,
when she looked at me in the worst manner possible
n said i was just lazy
and lying through my teeth.
i said my sincere apology n sat back down.
the next girl was one of the best artists in class.
her mum made a clay doll for her n submitted it
and the teacher was so proud of her.
she said the same thing i did
and the form teacher said
"oh, how smart of you.
class, do you see that?
she knows wad she can do within a period!"
i was horrified.
my first exposure to the unequals in life--
in only i knew wad more was coming my way later in life.
i couldn't take the humiliation
and the unfair treatment.
noone seemed to notice it though.
noone cared.

i decided to cut my wrist.

chapters 3,4,5 are up if anyone is following.

miracle

Miracle
(Cascades)

Boy Meets Girl,
You were my dream my world
But I was blind, you cheated on me from behind
So on my own, I feel so all alone
though i know it's true, im still in love with you!!

(Chorus)
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
it can happen to me!!

Day and night im always by your side
cause I know for sure my love is real my feelings yours
so take a try don't need to ask me why
cause i know it's true, I'm still in love with you.

(Chorus)
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
I need a miracle, i wanna be your girl
give me a chance to see that you are made for me,
I need a miracle please let me be your girl
one day you'll see it can happen to me,
it can happen to me!!

Miracle...

ive been tired.
but tonight was the night man!
wasn't so excited about curtain call,
and i knew i had the curtain call
during the rehearsal.
post-production chilling with a few of them--
ayda, lenny, reilly and rochelle
was helluva fun time!!
the chat over the various foods--
funny looking shuijiao,
hokkien mee,
mango tau hwey,
sesame paste pancake,
chong you bing,
sweet soursop iced.
and then it was the wonderful sharing at mox.
totally relaxing!
den went home to a nice warm bath
and cooled floors to walk on,
then another wonderful conversation on msn
with the praxis wonders.
how lucky can i get?

thanks kris for coming down
and pei-ing me for the short while u were here --
the distance u travelled!!
and the chocs.
sweet n nice, just like u! =]

cascadas been on my mind,
especially these two songs,
Bad Boy and Miracle.
Yes darl, i'm a techno and country freak.
the ah lian aunty yes yes.
haha both techno,
so don't say i never warn u hor.
heard this piece of country music on the cab home
and i couldnt remb the title if i ever knew it,
and noone seems to know too.
i'll check it out later.

thoughts are fleeting and all over the place,
so i ain't gonna write any fiction today =].

a happy but could be happier jo.