things i shouldnt have done..

never play with a half-toddler in ur pencil skirt
i thought it was exciting that vera followed me everywhere i went in her little walker..
to my room n then waiting patiently outside while i packed my bag;
to the living room where i switched off the tv;
to the bathroom while i put on my makeup.
and all these while she chews (with her gums) on a saucer my mother gave her.

but she had to drop the saucer while i was at the last step of making up
and she had to whine non-stop... when she usually just does her puppy-eyes trick.
so my low tolerance for whining tugged at me to put down my moisturiser n just bend over, pick up the saucer, rinse it n pass it to her. sounds easy. put down my moisturiser... check. bend over... krrrrrrrrrrrk. oh. my gawd. i forgot i was wearing the if-u-must-bend-over-u-had-better-squat-with-ur-knees-together-then-bend- at-a-certain-angle-skirt. which meant that tearing noise must have come from my skirt. freeze. look down. eh? no damage done. so i wore a skirt with a large tear in the inner petticoat to work yesterday.

never write a post halfway
i had two things i shouldnt have done to blog about... until i clicked on "save as draft" and left it at that. ugh.

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anw. i just received news form the horse's mouth that it's galloping off to a greener pasture. that it's leaving a whatever-u-call-a-baby-horse to fend for its own. oh gosh. i think the baby can cope, but heyy. it's a pillar of advice going away! it just never occurred to me. a week before confirmation. and yes, it's three months already.

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and i remember the second (now third) thing i shouldnt have done!

never step on anyone's tail, for you won't know if it belongs to the butt you have to kiss tomorrow
okay, not literally. not even remotely metaphorical. just barely associated with this phrase. i cant believe it is happening. the seeds of poisonous um, pongpong i've planted yesterday have become a friend's plant. and i thought id never see it again.

it's frighteningly coincidental. or maybe there are just too few people who are brave enough to face what they really want. or if you insist on putting it your way, maybe there are just a handful of people who havent grown out of their sexuality cos it's a matter of time, to you.

horrible temper.

i have an absolutely horrible temper.
that will be gone really soon. really.

but i have an extremely understanding byby who understands me. or pretends to take it all well. haha. let me publicise my horrible temper so that i will remember to get rid of it. to think before i act. or talk.

but right now my byby's hp is off. and im worried sick. and i dont know what else to do except blog n whine. n wait.

and i have nothing to blog about except my concern. helppp.

poomsae competition

so byby's hard work has paid off!
=) 14/15 awarded little ones.

it was an early, reluctant rise from sleep. i didnt know what to expect n i didnt feel much. but i was bugging myself to call sir -- and wad a great idea! i bought 20 cups of coffee n 1 latte from macs, to go with a sausage egg mcmuffin. at least i did something. but of cos, i didnt buy it. cos it was drizzling and being treated very much like a princess, all i had to do was wait in the car.

as we entered the sports hall, i went straight to deliver food. and it wasnt until the competition really started n i started interacting with the competitors that i really got the butterflies. i felt like i was going to compete! wad with the adorable favourite sticking to me for a good while =). and of cos, after some settling down n some fussing around, i rose better to the occasion.

but really, the highlight of this event was a touching moment. when the students shyly requested to take pictures with their ma'am. holding their trophies. at that moment, i was deeply touched. and i hoped that one day, my students will come back to me, showing some sign that i have touched their lives in one way or another. like how nicholas and rachel walks with me to check my classroom, like how the students of two certain classes always waves enthusiastically to me when they see me, even when it's thru a tiny window framed by the door.

on the journey home, i heard a parent say that her child was so hardworking and so passionate about the sport, but lacks a similar interest in her studies. at that very moment, i felt like making her my student and instilling in her the interest to learn. maybe not to mug, cos i dont like mugging myself, but just an interest, just the knowledge that she can do well if she wants to. because everyone can. and i know i am able to build that confidence in her. and maybe, teaching is just what ive wanted to do all my life.

so by the laws of attraction, i'll be doing just that really soon, eh?

indeed, denise showed me my schedule. eight classes. and im torn. developing curriculum or teaching? it's an either or. and there are so many factors to consider. i need to think this through.

the longest 3hours

this should have been done earlier -- changing my bulky monitor n cpu away. my room looks so much neater i feel i was living a dustmite's life. i can now safely open my windows (okay i cant yet, not before i shift the speakers) n inhale fresh air. not that my room smells anything less than nice.

cleaning up is therapeutic. i dumped four huge plastic bags of stuff away and i anticipate more to go. i just need to bring in that stool and reach my ceiling-high cabinets to clear the stuffed toy section.

i got this lovely from the IT fair-

after byby pasted the wrap for me...


and then the many many nice 3d stickers...


but i've yet to load anything into it. meaning, i havent heard it. =\

i am so so rambling but time is passing so slowly i cant concentrate on anything! byby's due back in another 2h 15min but it feels like forever. n people seem to be going for butch hunt today -- tell me how it goes!

i just applied for my gstoffset. have you? deadline's 25 june for online application. ud better do so!

okay back to packing...

its possible!

hallo!! to leona n all!

i'm alive!
but... it's actually possible to forget how to blog. haha.

like i just told zs, i finally got down to shifting the 4 cpus outta my room and into the storeroom. and that is how this laptop got shifted to my room for my use. i should get down to buying my own real quick.

anyway, it's good to be online again! i feel different. haha.

so wads been happening, you ask.

ive been working and it's really nice! i get to feel abit more in control of my own life.

im terribly burnt. the face. my skin's peeling really badly, revealing raw skin. raw. skin. yes. and it's smarting so badly i messaged my manager to say im not working tomorrow. it hurts!! and i look horrid.

im so random. but i miss her! already. come back sharp and remember to call me, you!

rahhh. i'll get back the normal blogging style soon. i hope.

please bear with me.

and leona, u owe me something! dont make me ask! ;)